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August 31st, 2004
12:30 am - A new beginning...
Seeing as how my life has changed dramatically over the past months, I have decided to create a new journal. I just figured that I needed a new start, a clean slate. The new one is under ashes_2_stars in case you wanted to ass me as a friend! I sure hope you all do since many of you now have friends only journals. I will continue to update this one for a while, though.
Well, I'm sleepy so off to the sack I go! TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/sleepy_sp.gif) sleepy
Current Music: "Cold" - Crossfade
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August 30th, 2004
01:06 pm - Last night was GOOD...
I gotta make this quick because I have to get ready to go over to my mom's, but I just figured I'd update quickly. Last night, Daniel and went to Red Lobster and it was SOOOOOO good. I also got a massively huge strawberry daiquiri that was AMAZING. I swear, I could have stuck my head in the glass, it was THAT big. Anyhoo, after that, we picked up the midget and had a night to ourselves. It was very much enjoyed, even though I won't go into details.
Today, I'm going to do laundry at my parents' house and then who knows what else. As far as the rest of the week goes, I know that I need to go to the mall to get my shoes and jeans. Anyone wanna go with me?!? I'll probably go on Wednesday, so let me know! I also need to pack up all of my maternity clothes and take them over to my parents' for storage. YAY for having room for more clothes!
Anyhoo, I gotta go now so I'm gonna shut up! TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/stressed_sp.gif) rushed
Current Music: "Broken Promise Ring" - The Ataris
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August 29th, 2004
04:55 pm - Not too bad...
The weekend that I assumed to be dull has actual been rather nice. Yesterday, Daniel and I ended up renting some movies last night, so that was nice. We got Starsky and Hutch, Monster, and 50 First Dates. All movies were good, but there is one thing I know: I will never watch Monster again. It REALLY got to me, bugged me deep down, so that means it's a no-no. Like I said before, it was good, REALLY good actually, but it played on my mind too much. I can usually handle stuff like that because I'm so interested in the subject matter, especially films that depict true events, but this one was just a little much. One scene in particular truly disturbed me and that was enough to make me avoid the film from this point on. After watching that, I had to make myself stay awake to watch 50 First Dates because I needed to go to bed on a happy note. I can't watch that kind of stuff before bed, EVER.
Anyhoo, Daniel and I decided that we're taking an evening to ourselves and going out to dinner. My mom's going to keep Delanie, and he and I are going to Red Lobster. MMMMM seafood, YUMMY!! I think I'm going to get an alcoholic beverage as well, since either a margarita or a strawberry daiquiri is calling my name.
Well, that's about all for now. I'll write again whenever to mood strikes me! TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/angelic_sp.gif) good
Current Music: "Blinded" - Third Eye Blind
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August 28th, 2004
02:35 pm - Laaa deee f-ing daaa...
So since my cousin went home, my life has been pretty uneventful. I didn't go anywhere Thursday OR Friday, so blah to that. Amber came by to visit me on Thursday, so that was nice. I hadn't seen her in FOREVER and she's getting ready to head back to school, so it was good that she came by. Friday was especially boring because Daniel came home late, DARN late. Plus, the girls wanted me to go down to Franklin to meet them at Mi Pueblo, but of course I couldn't because Daniel wasn't home and I didn't have anyone to watch Delanie. Figures, the one night that people want to do stuff is the one night I can't. Anyhoo, no biggie, I'll just have to do something with them all soon.
Today has at least involved me getting out of the house, so that's a start. Daniel and I had our first counseling session and everything there went well. I didn't get back in time to go to Bethany's wedding, so that was a bummer. We also ran quickly to Meijer to get a few groceries, like Pepsi and Mountain Dew because 24 packs were a beautiful $3.97! Wow, what a deal! We also got out WIC stuff and TRIED to get Delanie's formula, but they were out of the size of cans that we needed. Blah to that! So now Daniel is running around like a crazy person trying to find somewhere that has enough cans. As far as the rest of the day goes, Daniel is going to take some nice pictures of our little angel and then we're going to rent some movies. Not really sure what yet, but I guess we'll see. We're going to get something funny and something not-so-funny. For the funny one, I'm thinking either The Girl Next Door or Euro-Trip. For the not-so-funny one, I'm thinking either Taking Lives or Monster. A couple of those are new releases, so the video store might be making the final decision for me!
Hmmm, what about the rest of the week?!? Well, I'm going to get my shoes and jeans this week sometime! WHOOHOO for that! I'm looking forward to try on new pants that are a size smaller than what I used to wear! KICK ASS! I'm not really sure what else is going on, but I doubt it will be too interesting. Yeah, that's right, my life is pretty darn boring.
Well, that's all for now. I'll write again eventually! TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/mellow_sp.gif) content
Current Music: "Feeling This" - Blink 182
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August 26th, 2004
12:23 pm - It's been a few...
I know I haven't updated in what feels like a century, but it's been nuts. Ummm, I'm trying to think of what all has happened since I last wrote. Well, first off, the wedding date has OFFICIALLY been set for November 6th. What happened to October 30th, you ask? Well, the pastor that's marrying us has a workshop that weekend and will be out of town. SOOOO, we opted for the next weekend. The location has since changed as well. We were planning on having the ceremony at Craig Park in Greenwood and the reception at the apartment clubhouse. Well, the more I think about it, the more I realize that I can't count on the weather being warm enough for an outdoor wedding. And as much as I DIDN'T want my wedding in a church, it looks like that's where it's going to be. We don't have to pay for it, since we will already be making a donation anyway. The reception MAY be still at the clubhouse, but it will more than likely be at the church. That part we would have to pay for, but we're not sure how much. I figure it would just be a lot more convenient to have everything in the same place. Daniel and I also start our counseling on Saturday, so that should be interesting. I really hope it doesn't make us hate each other or anything.
In other news, Emily goes home today. I already had to say my goodbyes because they had a lot of stuff to do today before she heads to the airport. Her flight leaves at 2:40, so I just hope everything goes ok for her. We were both pretty emotional, but that's how it always goes. Heck, I don't know when I'm going to see her again, so it is pretty sad. I think Delanie's going to miss her too.
Well, I suppose that's all for now. The rest of the day is going to be pretty lazy for me, but that's what I need. I'll just be glad when Daniel's home from work. TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/indifferent_sp.gif) blah
Current Music: "Love Rollercoaster" - Red Hot Chili Peppers
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August 23rd, 2004
04:40 pm - My social life may be returning...
This livejournal entry is brought to you from the far reaches of my parents' house. I am hiding out for the time being, keeping myself a good distance away from Daniel's grandma, who is coming over to the apartment tonight. In order to avoid her, I have made plans with my little to grab some late night appetizers from Applebees, go shopping at the mall, and go see The Stepford Wives at the cheap movies. Daniel doesn't know exactly why I'm staying away, but he respects my decision all the same and is going to make up an excuse for me. Heck, I don't need that kind of pressure tonight and he knows I'm a timebomb waiting to explode, so there will be no aggravations for me.
The rest of the week is going to be pretty busy as well. Tomorrow morning, I have to bring Delanie over here to visit my grandma and then I have to go to my doctor's appointment that afternoon. THEN I'm going out to eat with my parents and Emily, since she leaves on Thursday. Then on Wednesday, I'm going to come over here to do some laundry. Thursday is when Em leaves, but I don't think I'll be going to the airport. It's just too much to pack up the baby and stuff. Plus, I'm supposed to do something with Amber this week since I haven't seen her in what feels like forever. Yeah, like I said, crazy week.
Well, my little is on her way over here, so I need to go. TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/bored_sp.gif) bored
Current Music: "Turn Me On" - Kevin Lyttle
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August 21st, 2004
11:18 pm - I just don't get it...
I really don't know what's going on with me right now. I'm feeling very anti-social and sad all of a sudden and I don't understand it. Yeah, I know it has something to do with this whole postpardum thing and the fact that I haven't been eating. I just don't feel like being around people, other than Delanie and Daniel. Sometimes I don't even want to be around Daniel, and that makes me realize that there is definitely something wrong. For the most part, it's not anything personal and I'm not mad at anyone or anything. Well, I'm not mad at MOST of the people I associate with, but there are a select one or two that are pissing me off. I won't go into that right now, but I'm not referring to anyone who reads this, so no worries there. I just really don't understand my emotions right now, and it feels like all I do anymore is cry. And apparently I never look happy anymore, or so I've been told. The only time people see me truly happy is when I'm with Delanie, and that's quite obvious. If I could make everything normal again, I would, but I just don't know how. I'm not writing this so that anyone worries or feels bad, I just want to let the people I care about know why I may not be acting like myself or feel like going out.
Well, that's enough negativity for one night. I have to be up early in the morning for the joys of church, so I'm gonna head to bed. TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/sad_sp.gif) sad
Current Music: "Lying From You" - Linkin Park
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August 20th, 2004
11:18 pm - Time for a quiz...
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Re-align" - Godsmack
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08:03 pm - This weather sucks...
I was supposed to go downtown today with Emily and my parents, but because of the retarding f-ing weather, we didn't go. Instead, I got to get soaked multiple times as I took Delanie to her doctor's appointment. She's doing just fine, growing like any normal, healthy baby girl. YAY for Delanie's clean bill of health.
In other news, I think I may have pink eye. My eye has been a pinkish red color since I got up this morning and it's sore and watery. If I do, I don't know what the hell I'm going to do because I can't exactly be around Delanie with it. GRRRR. Oooh, on a good note though, I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight. They weighed me at my WIC appointment and I was very pleased. Now I just have to do some sit-ups to get rid of the loose skin around my belly and I'll be set. Well, I might try to lose a little more weight too, but I know that's completely up to me.
As far as the weekend goes, it's probably going to be pretty hectic. Tomorrow, I'm going to visit some family that wants to see Emily and Delanie, and then we're heading downtown since the rain screwed it up for us today. Then Sunday, I think I'm going to go to church and breakfast with my grandma. Yeah, I know, totally not an Ashlie thing to do. But the minister is going to be marrying Daniel and I, so I need to talk to her about the counseling classes and such.
Well, that's about all for now. If anything fun and exciting comes up, I'll let ya know! TTFN!
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: "Getting Away With Murder" - Papa Roach
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August 19th, 2004
12:49 pm - In a hurry...
I have a lot of stuff to do, but I just wanted to update real quick. Yesterday was a decent day. I took Emily to see Raising Helen, which was really good, and then we went back and hung out at my mom's for a while. Then I came home and spent some time with Daniel, which is ALWAYS nice. Today, I have to take Emily and Delanie up to my mom's work so one of the girls can see Delanie. Then, Emily and I are gonna go shopping. I know I need to get some Drano, but that's all I know, so anything else will be an impulsive buy. Tonight, I WAS going to go to One Liners with my little and Karen, but Daniel ended up having to work late and I don't have anyone to watch Delanie. Soooo I have to stay home, but I'm sure we'll all get to do something sometime soon.
In other news, I've been really busy with appointments and stuff lately. Yesterday, I had my WIC appointment and I got 3 months worth of checks. I thought that since I'm not breastfeeding, I would ONLY get checks for formula. Apparently I was wrong because I still get lots of food too. That is perfectly fine with me! Tomorrow, I have to take Delanie back to the doctor for a check-up, and then next Tuesday, I have to go to the OBGYN for my postpardum checkup. YAY for getting back on birth control. Oh, and another good thing... my hospital bill only ended up being $20 TOTAL. Yeah, the insurance company paid all of my $6,000 bill except for $20 of it, which was for the TV and phone in the room. I am VERY relieved. WHOOHOO!
Well, that's all for now I suppose. I need to finish getting ready. TTFN!
Current Mood: rushed
Current Music: "Show Me How to Live" - Audioslave
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August 17th, 2004
08:21 pm - I'm bored, so it's time for a survey...
*FIRSTS*
First best friend: Monica George
First car: 1988 Grand Prix
First break-up: Aaron Shaw in preschool
First screen name: BSBFan330, pretty sad
First self-purchased album: Well, my first tape was New Kids on the Block, but my first CD was Boyz II Men
First funeral: My gret-grandpa's when I was about 10
First pets: Sheena, our German Shepherd
First piercing/tattoos: Ears when I was 4, but my first body piercing was my tongue. My first tattoo was my blue hibiscus flowers when I was 19.
First true love: Daniel
First enemy: Ummm, I'm not really sure
First big trip: One of my many England trips
First music you heard in your house: All of my parents' music, like Elton John, Hall and Oates, Huey Lewis, Pink Floyd, Marvin Gaye, The Temptations, etc.
*LASTS*
Last cigarette: It's been a WHILE
Last car ride: Ummm, yesterday to Meijer. I drove myself everywhere today
Last kiss: Just about 10 minutes ago
Last good cry: Only a couple days, damn hormones
Last food consumed: A spicy chicken tendercrisp sandwich from Burger KIng
Last crush: Daniel, gotta love him
Last phone call: Ummm, my little at work
Last thing heard: My fingers tapping on the keyboard
Last time showered: This morning
Last shoes worn: My pink flip-flops
Last item bought: Hmmm, a bunch of stuff today actually... bottle liners, ramen noodles, eyeshadow, a CD visor, wine coolers, and 2 pairs of sunglasses
Last annoyance: Daniel playing his freaking Doom 3 game
Last time scolded: I don't remember
*FASHION STUFF*
Favorite place to shop: Target, the Franklin Wal-Mart, Icing, American Eagle, Old Navy, etc.
Any tattoos or piercings: 2 in each ear lobe, my left tragus, my tongue, navel, and hood, and 5 tattoos
*SPECIFICS*
Do you do drugs: Not on a regular basis
What kind of shampoo do you use: Dove Intense Moisture
What are you most scared of: Birds, being murdered, and losing a loved one
What are you listening to right now: Ummm, Delanie screaming
Where do you want to get married: A park in the fall
What would you change about yourself: Too many things to list
*FAVORITES*
Color: Blue, purple, pink, yellow, orange, and black
Food: All seafood, salad, cheese fries, etc.
Boys’ name: Jackson, Maverick
Girls’ names: Dakota, Makenna, and Delanie of course!
Subject in school: Any sociology classes
Animal: Panda bears, polar bears, and dogs
Sports: Swimming, tennis, and basketball
Perfume: Ralph, Lucky You, Ralph Lauren Romance, Clinique Happy, Candies
Cologne: Daniel's Lucky, Romance for men, and Curve for men
*HAVE YOU EVER*
Given anyone a bath: Yep, I give my little girl one every night
Smoked: other than the occasional cigar
Bungee jumped: Nope
Made yourself throw up: Yes, and I don't really want to go back to that
Skinny-dipped: No actually
Been in love: Yes, I am right now
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: Yep
Pictured your crush naked: I've SEEN him naked
Actually seen you crush naked: See the above answer
Cried when someone died: Yes, I freaking cry when people die in movies!
Lied: Of course
Fallen for your best friend: Nope
Rejected someone: Yes
Used someone:Yeah, but I'm not too proud of it
Been rejected: Yes
Done something you regret: Who hasn't?!?
*LAST PERSON*
You touched: Daniel
You hugged: Daniel
You Imed: My little
You kissed: Daniel
*ARE YOU*
Understanding: I sure think so
Open-minded: Very
Arrogant: I can be
Insecure: Yes
Interesting: I hope so...
Hungry: Nope
Smart: Sort of
Moody: Sometimes
Hardworking: For the most part
Organized: Yes
Healthy: I'm not sure
Shy: Sometimes
Attractive: I don't think so, but Daniel sure does
Bored easily: Not really
Responsible: Yes, especially since I'm a mom now
Obsessed: Yes
Angry: Sometimes
Sad: Sometimes
Disappointed: Sometimes
Happy: Not as much as I should be
Hyper: Sometimes
Trusting: Not at all
Talkative: Sometimes
*WHICH IS BETTER*
Coke or pepsi: Pepsi
Flowers or candy: Flowers
Tall or short: Taller than me
*RANDOM*
In the morning I am: Grumpy
I dream about: random stuff
What do you notice first: Eyes
Last person you danced with: I don't know
Who makes you laugh the most: Daniel
Who makes you smile: Daniel, Delanie, and all of my friends
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: No one
Who do you have a crush on: Uhhh, we've been through this before
Who has a crush on you: Daniel
*DO YOU EVER*
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: No
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: Yeah, for about a week out of every month
Wish you were younger: Not really
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: The Sex and the City theme music
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10:28 am - Kinda crazy...
The past few days have been pretty insane, so I haven't really had much free time to sit and document it all in live journal. Well, now that I do, I will! Friday night, I went to see The Village with Bethany. Definitely an interesting movie, typical M. Night Shyamalan shit. Saturday, Daniel and I just kind of chilled and went to his dad's to hang out with Josh and Kimberly. When we got home, he forced me to eat dinner against my will, and then I crashed out. Sunday, I went to the State Fair with my parents and Emily. I got a kick-ass cheeseburger, a lemon shake-up, and a strawberry whip. Then I went back to my parents' for dinner, which made it 2 meals in one day for me. I swear, that's gotta be a record. Yesterday, I took Emily swimming, went to visit Nick with Delanie, and went back to my parents for dinner. Then, Daniel and I went grocery shopping and spent the rest of the evening together. That brings me to today, and I'm going to visit my little in Franklin and take Emily shopping. I know, I've become a busy bee lately. Something is very wrong with this!
Anyhoo, I need to go get ready and such, so I gotta go. TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/awake_sp.gif) awake
Current Music: The sound of 7th Heaven
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August 13th, 2004
08:16 pm - It's been a day...
So today has been and will be pretty busy. I took Emily to the mall and to see Mean Girls today, since I promised her that I would. Mean Girls is such a great movie, I can't wait until it comes out on DVD. Emily seemed to enjoy herself too, which was good. When we were at the mall, I bought some new earrings and sunglasses. Emily bought earrings too and some CUTE hair ties from Limited Too. We also got pretzels from Auntie Anne's, which were wonderful. We all know that I absolutely adore those. As far as the rest of the night goes, I'm going to see The Village with Bethany since we ended up not being able to go last night. I sure as heck hope it's as good as it looks. It damn well better be. Daniel took Delanie over to Josh's for a little get-together or whatever. I was going to go if my plans with Bethany fell through, but since they didn't, off to the movies I go.
As far as the rest of the weekend goes, tomorrow is my day with Daniel. We're taking the day to ourselves, as a family. We need it, especially since we haven't go to spend much time together lately. I think that is a big part of the reason we've been arguing, so hopefully this helps. Sunday, I'm going to the State Fair with my parents and Emily. Daniel's going to stay home with the baby since he doesn't really care about the fair and because I didn't really want Delanie to be out in the heat for that long. It'll give him a chance to hang out with her, though, since he doesn't get to do that too much during the week.
Well, I gotta go put some stuff away before I head to the movies. TTFN!
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Vitamin R" - Chevelle
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August 12th, 2004
12:47 pm - Everything's OK (I think)...
So my mom thinks the whole postpardum depression thing is starting to hit me. I can't say that I completely disagree, but I don't like to think of myself falling into that deep dark hole again. I got myself out the first time, and I'm still really not sure how. But if I end up down there again, I don't know if I'll be able to get out. Everyone's worried about me, and that just makes me feel worse. Daniel and my mom are both freaking out because I don't eat and because I look really pale. And it's not like I'm trying to starve myself, I'm just never hungry. I just keep telling myself that I'm fine, and I'm not going to let this postpardum shit get me down. If I let myself fall, I doubt I'll be able to get back up, so the easiest thing to do is fight it. The best way for me to make myself smile is to look at Delanie. There are just no words to describe how happy that little girl makes me feel.
Daniel and I also worked out most of our issues, so that makes me feel better. That's another reason why my mom thinks I'm getting all emotional. Apparently I've been being really mean to Daniel, but I see it the other way. I don't know, it's just hard to gauge what's going through my mind right now. All I know is that Daniel and I are ok now, so that's all that matters. Some things are still upsetting me, about everything in general, but I'm trying to force myself not to think about all of the negative stuff.
Well, that's all for now. I need to jump in the shower before I head out. TTFN!
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: "Pieces of Me" - Ashlee Simpson
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August 10th, 2004
01:05 pm - Survey Fun...
General
Name - Ashlie
Nicknames - Ash, Ash Cash, Punkin Pie, Sweet Pea, and Babe
Birthday - May 9, 1983
Astrological sign - Taurus
Marital Status – Very much engaged, might as well be married
Current Hair color – My usual auburn with copper highlights
Eye color – Bluish-green
Parents still together- Yep
Siblings- None
Pets- 2 dogs - Zoe (German Shepherd) and Aspen (Siberian Husky)
In school/graduated- Senior at Franklin College
What do you drive- '98 Ford Contour that has yet to be named
Favorites
Color – Blue, purple, pink, and yellow
Animal - Polar bears and panda bears
Vehicle – Jeep Liberty, preferably silver
Beer - MGD, Miller High Life, or Bud Light
Soda – Cherry Coke
Food – Seafood, salad, cheese fries
Extracurricular Activity – Delta Gamma, even though I'm going alum
Book – The Harry Potter series
Author – J.K. Rowling, Stephen King, Nicholas Sparks
Band - Dave Matthews Band, Something Corporate, Incubus, Three Days Grace, Evanescence, Seether, Godsmack, AFI, etc.
CD - Any of the Dave ones, Three Days Grace, Hanson's Underneath, etc.
Movie - Spider-Man 2, White Oleander, Ghost World, Lilo and Stitch, etc.
Do You?
Color your hair? – Not usually, but I have highlights in it now
Have tattoos? - Yep, 5
Piercings- Each ear twice, my left tragus, navel, tongue, and hood
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? - Yes
Have you?
Stolen anything- Yep
Smoked- Yep
Drank- Yep
Cheated on someone- Yeah...
Been married- Not yet, but soon
Been divorced- Nope
Are you psycho – Sometimes
Split personalities- Nope
Depressed- I get that way sometimes
Suicidal- I used to be
Mutilate animals- HELL NO!
Have you ever?
Kissed someone- Yep
Been in love- Yep
Kept a secret from everyone- Yep
Set a body part on fire- Nope
Had an imaginary friend- Nope
Found a cartoon character attractive- Nope
Prank called someone- Nope
Been on stage- Yep
Gotten in a car accident- Yes, but not in my car
Do You?
Have any regrets- Yeah, I think we all do
Do you have a best friend- Yeah, a couple
Do you believe in?
God/Devil- Ehhhh, that's debatable
Yourself- Not as much as I should
Your friends- Yep
Aliens- Not sure
The Closet Monster- Nope
One person for everyone- No, I don't think so
Favorites Part II
Number- 3, 7, and 15
Day- Friday or Saturday
Month- Ummm, October or December
Friends
Best girl friend- Amber, Little Amber, and Jess
Best guy friend- Daniel, Nick, and Chris
Who have you known longest- Nick
Who have you known shortest- Ummm, not sure
Craziest- Jenna
Loudest- Jenna
Funniest- Jenna, Chris, Daniel, and Nick
Sweetest- Daniel can be when he wants to...
Most caring- All of them
Best dressed- Amber and Angie
Flirtiest- Amber
Most likely to be a stripper- Eric
Most likely to be a doctor- Little Amber
Most likely to be a stay at home mom- I know Amber would LOVE to...
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: The sound of Discovery Health
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10:37 am - I know it's been a while...
I know I haven't updated in FOREVER, but our computer basically crashed. The motherboard broke, so Daniel had to go out and buy a new one. The sucky thing is, we lost everything on the hard drive. :( I had downloaded about 20 full CDs, and now they're all gone. All of my LJ icons are gone too. I also have to reset everything on IM and such, so this is going to be a LONG process. I just want to scream, there was so much important shit on the hard drive that I can't get back. Well, I guess that will teach my to save everything to disks. I would have burned all of the music, but I don't have enough blank CDs. GRRRRR! We also don't have Kazaa yet, so I can't get the music back yet.
In other news, the past few days have been interesting. Saturday, Daniel and I headed up to Lafayette for his grandpa's birthday. Delanie was a big hit with all the family, that's for sure. Sunday was the Brickyard and it was great, except for the fact that Jeff Gordon won. :( Kasey Kahne came in 4th though, so YAY for that. We had to wait forever and a day to catch the bus after the race, but other than that, it was a good day. Yesterday, Bethany came over and brought Delanie a present. She and I are going to see The Village on Thursday, so that should be fun. Today, I'm going with my dad to pick up my cousin from the airport. I have to take Delanie with me, which I'd rather not do, but she'll be fine. I'm taking the little EuroRider carrier thing, so I won't have to carry her heavy car seat. The rest of the week is up in the air, so I guess we'll see what happens. Daniel and I are also discussing going to Cedar Point for a couple days at some point in the relatively near future. We've also pretty much settled on a wedding date - October 30th. Right around Halloween, so that should be great. We want to have the ceremony at Craig Park in Greenwood and then have the reception at the clubhouse at our apartment complex. My aunt has also agreed to make our cake, so that will be a BIG help. She's also gonna help with other food and flowers. It's great to have family that want to get involved!
Well, Delanie is crying now so I need to see what the problem is. TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/grumpy_sp.gif) frustrated
Current Music: The sound of Delanie's little random noises...
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August 6th, 2004
09:29 pm - Good news!!!
Who's going to the Brickyard?!? That's right, I AM I AM! Daniel's brother Jason decided not to go (dumbass) so I was invited to take his ticket. Kick ass! I guess I don't have to be all jealous of Daniel now, since we're going together! YAY! OK, there's my excitement for about the next century, so I just thought I'd share it with you! TTFN!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/silly_sp.gif) giddy
Current Music: "Who I Am" - Smile Empty Soul
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05:08 pm - I just don't know...
Well, yesterday turned out to be a somewhat exciting day. I think it may have had something to do with the bitchfest otherwise known as my last entry. I ended up going out to eat and shopping with my little and Kelly. We ate at Panera and shopped at Castleton. I hada good time, even though I couldn't afford to buy anything. It got me out of the apartment and I got to spend some Q-T with two of my FAVORITE sisters. We also met up with Kelly's sister Maggie, who never fails to absolutely crack my shit up. While I was out having fun, Daniel stayed home with Delanie, something he was really looking forward to.
In other news, Daniel and I talked about some stuff last night. I have been getting really upset with him lately and I needed to let him know exactly how I felt. I think it went ok, even though some of the talking was actually yelling. We both got angry about some things, but it's better to let it all out than to hold it in. I have found that when I don't express my feelings on an issue, it boils inside me and makes me feel more and more miserable. Nevertheless, we both feel significantly better now, even though we got mad with one another. Since Delanie got here, we haven't had any time for us, and our attention has been completely focused on her. Yes, I'm aware this is the way it should be, but it can also take a toll on relationships. We're going to make more of an effort to talk and make time for each other, even though we have a daughter.
Well, I think that's about it. Tomorrow, I'm heading over to visit my aunt and cousin for a little while before I head to Lafayette with Daniel and Delanie. Sunday is the Brickyard, so I will either be there or visiting Stephanie with my little. As much as I wanna see Steph, I really hope that Daniel's brother decides to stay at home and smoke weed instead of going to the race. TTFN!
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Vindicated" - Dashboard Confessional
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August 4th, 2004
12:22 pm - Where did my social life go?
Apparently most people assume that when you have a kid, you can no longer do anything outside of the house. That assumption would be wrong, but unfortunately, I have been forced to stay in seeing as how I've had absolutely nothing to do. When Daniel gets home from work, I usually just leave with nowhere to go and no one to go with. I'm tired of being by myself all the time, but I know there really isn't anything I can do about it. All of my friends are too busy or have other plans, so I'm basically stuck on my own. I'm also missing out on 2 events that I REALLY wanted to attend. First off, the Evanescence concert was last night and I wasn't there. :( I should have been, I had no reason not to, but I had no one to go with and I don't go to concerts on my own. It would have been the best show too, with 3 of my favorite bands performing. Grrrr. The Brickyard is Sunday and I don't get to go to that either. I think what bothers me the most is that Daniel gets to go, and I get to sit at home on my ass. It doesn't seem to bother him either, which upsets me even more. Maybe I'm being selfish, but it's just really disappointing for me. He knows how much I wanted to go and it's like he doesn't even care. I guess I can't expect him to stay home just because I can't go, but I kinda wish he would anyway. I'm still holding out that one of his brothers decides not to go, but I'm probably not that lucky.
In other news, my cousin from England will be here in less than a week. I guess that's my opportunity to get out of the house because she's going to want to shop and such while she's here. My mom has already offered to watch Delanie while I take Emily out. She's eleven, so I know she'll want to spend as much time as she can with her older and cooler cousin. :) I'm not self-absorbed, am I?
Well, that's all for now. TTFN!
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: "Just Like You" - Three Days Grace
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August 1st, 2004
02:09 pm - It had been a while...
SO I drank last night, and it was quite evident that it had been a while for me. My tolerance has gone WAY down, so I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. The night was really fun though, more fun than I really anticipated. Since my parents kept Delanie overnight, Daniel and I were getting a night for ourselves. Scott ended up coming over too, which turned out to be ok. I wasn't really enthused when he basically invited himself over, but it was actually a lot better than I thought. Maybe I can tolerate him more when I'm drunk and he's drunk... Anyhoo, we went out and got 2 pints of Goldschlager, a 6 pack of Smirnoff Twisted Raspberry, and a 6 pack of Mike's Hard Lemonade. As of about 2:00 this morning, all of that alcohol was gone. I had 3 shots of Goldschlager and 3 Smirnoff Twisted, and I sipped off a couple more that Scott drank. I was so f-ing trashed, and we ALL know that's not like me. Come on, 3 shots and 3 drinks! I can handle more than that! I guess I'm just out of practice. I also threw up a bunch last night and this morning, not to mention the splitting headache that I'm suffering from right now. And once again, we know that's not me. I don't get hangovers! It was a good night though, and I got to see Daniel drunk! It was his first time ever, and it was HILARIOUS. He can put it away though, because he downed 13 shots of Goldschlager, a Mike's Hard Lemonade, and half a Smirnoff Twisted. His shots weren't from shot glasses either, so they were bigger than ones that I would take.
As far as today goes, I'm trying to recover from last night before Delanie comes home. Then we're going over to Daniel's dad's for dinner since he just got back from vacation. I just want to feel better!
Well, that's all for now. I'll write again when I get a chance. TTFN!
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Current Music: Silence, I couldn't deal with anything else right now
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